Okay things got a little dark for me for a while, I quite the rock talkers podcast, and started to loose hope about the future. I have a hallow feeling and it has really got a grasp on me, I feel like I have no friends, and I am all alone. Empty I feel empty....
So lets start things off with a bit of good news. today I ran 4 miles non stop! that is the longest I have ever run WooHoo! Last Night I ran a mile in 9:11 that is the fastest I have ever ran a mile, And I am working out with 50lb dumbbells I can really see a improvement in my body and I feel great!
On Saturday I start a new job! it has almost been a year seance I have worked and money was starting to get scarce.
I got a new snake!
Now why did I quite the podcast~ It stopped being fun, I wanted to teach people about cool bands and review cool new albums and one of our host (Chris) refused to listen to any of the albums, he was far to vulgar for me (he liked to talk about other guys sucking on other guys way to much, I really question his sexuality lol) I felt bad because Kerrick paid for everything on the show he must have spent 200-300. And I feel like we all wasted our time. So I have no bad feelings towards K-rock and I hope to work with him again, But Chris on the other hand, lets just say I don't ever want to talk to that guy again.
In the Reptile world a of states are trying to stop people from owning snakes, and reptiles in general. Its is a scary thing because I want to breed snakes as a hobby and maybe one day for a living. The Burmese Python is now illegal to move from state to state and that is just stupid! How is me owning a Burm and moving from Cali to W.v. or A.r. going to help the problem in the everglades?( that is the snake that people are saying is a problem in south Florida)
So that made me question that path in my future and really made me sad.
But I went out and with my tax return I got myself a new ball python, She is a Mojave morph and just beautiful! I will post a pic of her :)
there is a really great reptile community that is about 2 hours away that I plan to start going to there meetings and learning all I can maybe I might meet a cool chick there!
On Saturday I will be starting a job at a new grocery store called Fresh and Easy, I am almost completely out of money so I am really excited to start working, I also am looking forward to just meeting some new people and maybe making some new friends! I plan to put myself out there and try to have a good time!
My friend convinced me to join a online dating site, and I have gone out on a few dates its kinda nice when girls think go out of the way to contact me, It has helped me build up a little confidence again! So far no girls that I'm into tho. And there is a girl that I had a big crush on that has given me her number and we are supposed to go hiking in a few weeks! She is way out of my league tho :( but at least it's a start!
I have decided that California is not for me, It is too expensive to live here, I really think it will be too hard to finish college out here and try and get in shape, work and have my own place. I am ashamed that I live with my grandparents, I plan to move out in a few months I will ether move out to Wv or Ar not 100% sure yet. But I know I need to leave this house my grandparents only bring me down, I do not think that I can care for them any longer, My grandma will not stop talking about food lol (sucks when you are trying to diet) and my grandpa has become a bitter old man a shadow of the man he used to be. ( he try's every chance he gets to start a fight with me, I refuse to argue with him and that seams to make him more argumentative. :( Anyway I will start to save up for the move and keep weighing my options. It is good to have options :)
Song of the day Remembrance by Balmorhea
Its is a beautiful peace that really is appropriate, for my mood after writing this blog, I really feel bummed out now lol
No comments:
Post a Comment